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Life of an Academic

In Blog on May 21, 2012 at 8:03 pm

I spent a bit of today after I got home from my internship being productive.

I updated my LinkedIn profile and filled out my weekly progress reports for my internship class.

I reflected — to myself, of course — about how great it was to feel less pressure now that the GRE’s over and because I lack a Summer A class.

I’ve just been internin’ and then filling out my duties at the paper/station(s)/website. And, between all that, I’ve had so much free time.

Last Monday, I posted a video called “My Parents Didn’t Send Me to College to Become an Academic.”

I’m so happy that video’s out in the world. Ever since reading The Marriage Plot, all I can think about is the life of an academic.

This video gives you some insight into the thought process of an academic life versus a professional life — as seen through me, of course. I also touch on some ideology in it, but I didn’t let myself delve too much into that.

That can be for another time or never at all.

Alive and Unwatched

In Blog on May 6, 2012 at 8:39 pm

I’ve been indulging in Daily Grace videos all day, and I ain’t mad at myself for it.

I think it’s incredible how she can make five videos a week and somehow still remain sane and, of course, hilarious.

I’m sure it being the source of her ability to, you know, eat and pay rent plays a tiny role.

As much as YouTube is a fun hobby, I doubt I could ever do it full time. And, even for the creators whose content suits an audience that doesn’t include me, I can respect that people get to make it their primary source of income and a way to fully support four-children families.

But none of this is new. The video I posted yesterday is new, though.

Oh, it didn’t show up on your subscription list? This could’ve been due to the feature on YouTube’s homepage for users that gives the choice of viewing just “Highlights” of subscriptions or “Everything.”

The conversation about this feature has appeared numerous times on Tumblr recently, and Kayley found that, mainly, it’s only useful to click “Everything” when a subscription uploads multiple videos.

Well, that was the mistake I made. I uploaded two videos yesterday, a main video called “Print Isn’t Dead” and an unlisted video that I recorded in March — a response to Margaret’s tagging me (and subsequently Sarah’s and Laura’s).

I originally was going to upload the tagged video on Thursday or Friday as unlisted, but I didn’t get around to editing until Saturday morning. Mainly because I was finishing up my reading of The Marriage Plot.

In any case, the new video’s up, regardless, and, as always, available for discussion.

In life news, I start my summer internship tomorrow. I’m excited to build up my graphic design portfolio for the inevitable page designer/copy editor jobs for which I’ll start applying in the fall.

I mean, someone’s gotta know AP style AND be overly handy with InDesign, don’tcha think?

Quick Thoughts on Video Blogging

In Blog on April 18, 2012 at 11:59 am

Every time I upload a video to my YouTube channel, I always ask myself why I don’t do it more often.

Making videos has always been this strange hobby of mine that I shared with a person here or there who may or may not have fully understood.

For a long while, I was embarrassed of my interest in watching people I didn’t know talk to cameras, make short films and inspire me to be like them.

In 2010, I met so many of the people I watched for more than a year and friends I’d met online and talked to nightly throughout the summer.

Through my time, I’ve garnered a beautiful audience of intelligent, supportive people who appreciate what I do.

When you follow through with a video idea — for me, at least — you take a bit of yourself and somehow edit it together to make it coherent, intelligible. And then you throw it on this website and hope that the people who see it will understand, will connect, will give you feedback.

I’m always going to fear that someone’s going to dislike something about these weird things I put online. But I just thoroughly appreciate everyone who’s been super nice over the past — wow — three years.

And with that, I give you my recent video, which I uploaded Sunday, April 15. I want to give personal hugs to everyone who tweeted at me, you encouraging lot. And the super, brilliant folks who commented, you’re the literal best.

On ‘Deferred Dreams Always Explode’

In Blog on October 9, 2011 at 1:42 pm

I made this video last week — well, I guess a week and a half ago now. And I wanted to share it here — well, formally so, I just put it in my YouTube module at the bottom of this blog’s homepage yesterday.

Anyway, of course I scripted it. I guess it’s a poem? I don’t know. All I know is that I’d be totally down to perform(?) it at some Black History Month event this February. Is that bad? What does that make me? I don’t even usually acknowledge race as, like, a thing. But that’s a blog post for another time.

I’ve totally loved and appreciated all of the feedback the video’s received. I like that I usually only make videos when I feel that beautiful creativity surge. Even if it means posting once every two months.

But this blog’s here to fill that void. And my obnoxious Twitter account, of course.

Langston Hughes asks us, “What happens to a dream deferred? Does it dry up like a raisin in the sun? OR fester like a sore—and then run? Does it stink like rotten meat or crust and sugar over—like a syrupy sweet? Maybe it just sags like a heavy load. Or does it explode?”

And I’ll answer his question with another and say, “Why do dreams have to be deferred?”

I’ll define deferred as suspended or withheld until a later time, but, to me, this poem’s always made me seem like deferred meant something I’d never achieve.

I’d never snag that dream deferred.

Well, trust me, Langston Hughes, I’ve had my dreams deferred. I filled out my dream on an online application and attached some $25 with it. I mailed that dream to another city, and I waited my time and saw after much impatience that my dream had been deferred.

And I checked and checked and checked hoping my dream would be accepted, only to see that my dream had been denied.

Now, Langston Hughes, when I read the play before which your poem comes in high school, you never asked me about my dream denied. To the modern minds, deferred means postponed or delayed, but I’m not sure what it meant to you.

To me, deferred means ain’t no chance, and I’d seriously prefer my dreams not be deferred.

I mean, between tumbling at night in a cushioned mass I have dreams that aren’t deferred. I have dreams that start in the middle and end, sometimes, way too soon.

I fill my dreams up with so much imagination that is frightens me.

And when I squeeze my eyelids together I pray that my dream will not only be deferred but will be annihilated.

I’m a slave to my own imagination, and dreams frighten me with augmenting levels of intensity that those  eyelids jet open and darkness sets into them.

A sigh. Seven quick heart beats. And I’m back in the middle of a dream.

Listen, Mr. Hughes, deferred and procrastination prove nearly synonymous when it comes to dreams.

Why put off a dream today when I can put it off tomorrow?

And with that, why do I even have to dream at all? Why do dreams motivate goals and why do goals motivate motivation?

In fact, give me a promise of a dream deferred, so that I don’t have to get out of bed in the morning. Give me a promise of a dream deferred, so I can sit in my bedroom, making no noise and pretending I’m not there.

I don’t think it’s that simple, and I don’t think Langston Hughes is telling us that we should have deferred dreams or current dreams.

But, Mr. Hughes, I hope I’m never a grape of a man that the sun shrivels up, causing me to temporarily house myself in a red container like everyone else.

Instead, let me be a grape of wrath, and not wrath like some envious deity, but wrath as in angry with the idea of settling.

I don’t wanna chase after anything. I want to be so far ahead of my dreams that they will have no option to defer.

So, Mr. Hughes, instead of your on-the-surface depressing and fatalistic poem, I take you up on your last lyric.

Deferred dreams always explode. They explode into who we are every day. We walk around daily pretending we know what our dreams are, but I’d argue that our dreams don’t even exist yet.

And when I finally get a deferred dream, I’ll tear off its container and put it in my coffee to make it so syrupy sweet that I consume it with fervor and pass it along with other wasteful thoughts.

Mr. Hughes, I don’t wanna waste my days dreaming if that’s what involuntarily happens to me at night.

An FSU TA showed one of my videos in his class

In BEDA 2011 on April 13, 2011 at 10:15 pm

I came home to one of the most exciting messages in my YouTube career.

One of my friends from middle left a comment on my Facebook wall that said her teacher’s assistant at Florida State University showed my video “Anaphora is for Ststutterers” in class today.

She told me that the class was reviewing stylistic techniques for their final speeches, and the teacher’s assistant wanted to use examples for YouTube to reinforce these techniques.

I didn’t get overdramatic, but a couple of tears did leak through my eyes when I realized the implications of this.

I’ve been in college for almost two years, and ever since we started watching YouTube videos in my class in fall 2009 — in speech, coincidentally — I’ve feared/worried/been anxious about my videos showing up in the related videos.

I’ve never once considered that my video would be a part of a lesson in one of my own classes.

I can’t lie, though, after I posted that video, I thought to myself how it would be an entertaining way to teach students about simile, hyperbole, apostrophe and, of course, anaphora, but I just considered that wishful thinking.

It might sound vain, but now I’m wondering if educators have shown that, or any of my other educational-type videos, to there classes before now or even if they’ll do it after this.

I think what makes this whole experience more special for me is the fact that my friend was in the class in which my video was shown.

It just really encourages me to keep making educational videos, even if I’ll never make a dime from doing it.

I love the kinds of videos I make that are related to educating my viewers, and I’m incredibly thankful to have a subscriber base that, like, appreciates these videos and understands the jokes behind them.

Whereas sometimes I’ll feel inadequate to my video-making peers because they’re all so brilliant, crafty and talented, I find it humbling that I could be used as an educational tool — especially at the collegiate level.

Today, I’ve been thinking about more videos I want to make discussing some different literary topics, but of course, I like to make all sorts of videos.

Right now, I’m totally in love with making videos like that one for my fellow book-lovers, but I understand a lot of people enjoy seeing what creative editing tricks I can do, if done correctly.

I’m super excited about having some free time this summer to execute some different ideas and post them on my channel.

I think I’m almost over caring about if [insert YouTuber’s name here] will notice me, and instead I want to interact with the friends I already have and watch and support their content.

And so what if my videos don’t gain thousands or tens of thousands of views? If I can make things that cause people to think and that educate people, it satisfies the goals I’ve always had in mind a communicator, and that’s way more fulfilling to me right now than a large pay check.

Some YouTube-related thoughts

In BEDA 2011 on April 7, 2011 at 10:14 pm

I lied in my blog yesterday. I didn’t hang up the new poster I won last night until a couple of hours ago.

I am perfectly happy with it.

Yay for awkward blog introductions.

I know I talk about YouTube a lot, but it is a large part of my life, and I’d say most of the friends to whom I actually talk either make videos or are aware that I make them.

With YouTube, there’s a sense of levels of YouTubers, and while I think a lot of people make this seem like a negative thing, to me, it’s such a positive and beautiful thing.

A lot of people like to bunch people into groups, like I touched on a couple days ago, to help them make sense of things and to allow them to categorize things easier.

The same goes with YouTube. I’ve had a lot of friends talk to me about thinking I was in one “group” and then later thought I was in another “group,” when in reality, I’ve never fit into one group because not everyone in a particular group likes you, and often times, I’m not close with everyone in a certain group.

That said, I do believe that there are general groups with similar-subscriber-count people who often collaborate, interactive and plug one another — all of this is amazing.

I’m noticing now that there’s been a small and growing group of Nerdfighters with about 100 subscribers, who, maybe a year ago, didn’t make videos and looked up to people with whom I’m friends.

Now, it’s so cool because they’re their own inspirations and influences, but they keep the bigger guys around for old times sake. And that’s the truth for me.

While I may not subscribe to everyone who was a part of a rather large group of YouTubers who made videos in 2008, I’ve stuck with a lot of them since I started in 2009. And while a lot of them have moved on to different pursuits and hobbies, a few of them pop in from time to time to fill us in on their lives, whathaveyou.

For me, while I went and found different people to whom I look up, it’s still fun to watch those guys who set the precedent of what I do now.

All of this said, I find myself a bit jealous/proud of/happy for the rising community of a couple people who subscribe to me and their friends who all make videos and support one another. It’s so fun to think that, at one time, they didn’t really make videos and thought what I did was cool and decided to stick around.

With a little more exposure, I’m sure they’ll surpass me in no time, and I’ll be subscribed to them and in love with their content.

I think that’s what makes the learning process so wonderful: You have to keep mimicking until you eventually make it your own.

I wanted to make well-edited and original videos because of all the late nights I spent watching videos from Levi, Andrew Bravener, Shawna, mememolly, the works. I always get my vlogging inspiration from Kristina, Hayley and elmify. And in the back of my head, I always think what my closest friends with think of the videos I’m making, and it either pushes or repels me in the direction for that particular video.

What I’m getting at is this: Once you find that community that supports you, you’re going to grow. Not everyone will grow at the same rates, and the highest-subscribed won’t be the most well-respected. But it will happen, and it will be fantastic.

I’ve been a large espouser of the rule that people on YouTube have heydays for about a year in which their content is on-point. I think my best videos were on my webcam back in 2009 and early 2010. Of course I’ve made videos of which I’m proud since then, but I absolutely loved the raw feeling of only having a small group of friends who watched your videos, rather than the nerve-racking pressure of trying to make the most original thing in someone’s subscription box.

All right, I think this is the inappropriate outlet to let all of my opinions on YouTube-related things to go, but there’s been so much discussion about YouTube lately on YouTube that I couldn’t help but blog a sub-kind-of-related-topic to that. I’m sure I can flesh out my thoughts another day when it’s not late, and when I am not under a post-a-blog-every-day schedule.

This is probably the last time I can remind you of this: http://dft.ba/-iw2